This Night,

Hold me till I fall asleep, because it has been real tough these few days.

Me & just Me.

Great Company

Sereney came to visit me today! She dabao-ed Texas Chicken and GongCha over(: I knew alisan tea was good, stupid bao always tell me that he once tasted it before and it sucked, that's why I never got to try it before!!!

Ate. Lunched. Talked. Laughed. Watched 3 idiots. Talked even more. Watched 3 chapters of Vamp Diaries. I'm sure she's hooked on to it now. I'm an influential person! She left around 9.45pm(: It was definitely gr8 company.

Oh shittoz, we forgot to take pictures!

That's about it for today!

A Typical Day @ NJ

It has been a while since inertia kicks in. I kinda miss that feeling and such will only be experienced during school days. Maybe I miss going to NJ. I like lectures and utterly detest tutorials, no idea why either. Perhaps its because I prefer absorbing. The tone of my iphone alarm is still the most dreading sound that ever exist. Every morning, I drag my dead self up. Sleeping to the maximum time possible, I had to spend my first 20 minutes in the morning rushing lika mad dog -showering, changing. The moment I step my foot out of my house, the race begins. I would sprint about 100m to the bus-stop and catch that particular oncoming bus (the bus timings are screwed, they all come at one shot or not at all till like 15 minutes later) to Tampines Interchange. Hopped off the bus and start my brisk walk that lasts for about another 150m to the MRT station. Without fail, that sickening board would always show -Next train: 1/2 minutes!!! &I have to start sprinting again for the next 50m and hustle up the escalator, just in time to slip through the train doors. Its either that OR I miss the train and have to wait for 6 minutes in perspiration (thanks to all the running I did earlier), cursing and swearing because I know I have to brisk walk/slow jog to school later on, from the bus-stop outside NJ. Sounds near, but it isn't! Damn parade square situated at the other end of the school, with all the stairs and slopes. After the lame presentations during assembly, SCHOOL OFFICIALLY BEGINS. All the pub stunts or whatever crap they present during assembly never fail to make me question myself -"Why the fuck am I watching this?! I feel so embarrassed for them!"

Lectures. Tutorials. Breaks. I like Bio lectures the most. My teacher's good and it can be easily apprehended from the notes. I like History lessons when I understand the complicated 'layer by layer' notes by Lim. GP by Andrew Chong is really really boring, the way he speaks puts me to sleep, I swear! I would give any reason to pon his lessons. Math tutorials are the worst, I seriously honestly truthfully have not learned anything from Mrs Teo. I think I understand Math only from lectures(v seldom), asking around, re-reading my notes a million times or asking Jaime. HAHA CHEM, whatta joke. Marcus Yip is the worst teacher ever. All he does is spit saliva as he yaks on and on, non-stop! Back row was where I belong, together w all the other screwed up people. Our chem class was really legendary man, the number of passes for a test, is the number of distinctions. Which meant, the rest failed! This might seem like a big joke, we all found it ridiculously hilarious, but sensibly -it is SCARY. I gotta admit, of course there were times where I just could not be bothered, there were also times whereby I really wanted to listen but ended up dozing off. When the latter occurs, I really wna slap myself man.

On the side note, there are always breaks to make my day. With breaks, I get to eat and food really makes me happy. Caifan stall never fail to ensure that I am satisfied at the end of my meal. The $2 privilege(any number of sides plus soup, it still remains at $2) that only basketballers receive always make Bao so so JEALOUS! Oh & of course the best part of breaks - I get to see Bao. We'll put down our Jansport bagpack, walk towards the basin and remove my disgusting retainers, head to whichever stall we wanted to order from, he will carry both of our plates while I was in-charge of the utensils, put them all down at the table w me plopping down too while he went to get drinks (barley, coffee, chrysanthemum) and finally we start eating, our favourite thing-to-do. Haha, all these small actions are all a habit. It happens all the time! Right Bao?! I'm sure he'll agree w me entirely!

After school would be either training or staying in the library w Bao or extra other-nonsense-lessons. Lemme share some absurd things about NJ's library. They close at 5.30 or 6 max, like WTF thats like the timing when extra lessons ENDS and whoever who wna study in school after 6 have to move their ass to the disgusting canteen tables. yuckz! The aircon in the library is as good as not working. STINGY NJ, wna save money all! Okay enough about the library. I never liked going home, not because I don't wna be home, I just wish I could teleport instead.

&that is about all.

I miss feeling tired. The feeling of being able to sleep anywhere anytime. Most importantly, I miss feeling muscle aches, like really really bad aches. The sort that prevents you from laughing too hard or having difficulty walking down stairs. Am I Weird?!

Grandmother Oor

Why Grandmother Oor? You'll understand why when you're done viewing all the pictures. I can't believe how grandmother-ly I look! Bao keeps saying I look good in specs, SERIOUSLY?!

This time round only got to spend 3hr plus w him for the whole weekend cause dad was in town and left only this afternoon! Nonetheless, it was awesome time w him again. Let the pictures speak for themselves(:

He bought me this NS shirt and shorts. I was modelling it for him and I seriously believe that I'm cut out to be an awesome NS LADY! hahaha!

That's my commando BOY!

yoyo, me coool?!

The next time we'll be seeing each other would be Results Day.

Yeap I'm gonna stop there for now.

I hope my baby quickly recovers! ♥ him so much.

You are pathetic.

Baksetball.

I have not thought about it for v long.

Everything happens for a reason. I have always believed in this statement. Call it self-pity or whatever. I will never be able to apprehend, one leg after another. Each time I receive a notification from the group 'NJC basketball' on fb, it feels as if someone has just pinched me. Never bothered to check out what's the latest update, what's going on. Not that I do not care, not that I do not want to be part of such a warm community, I just do not see myself being part of it. I want to go back for training just like any normal person or just be part of the supporting squad at matches. I really wish them well for the competition they are currently in or the upcoming ones. There is something about NJ bball -The Spirit. They'll shine, the young ones. I gotta admit, I'm in awe of such great aura.

Initially, I had much to say when I first started on this post, sad chunk of words, but not anymore for now. Sometimes, I really loathe myself for being jealous of someone, for being angry at someone. This absurd attitude of mine has to change. I was never good to begin with. Funny how I thought I was. I kept fighting but to no avail.

The only conclusion that I am able to gather -Never Cut Out For It.

So, I'm gonna move forward and not look back anymore.

First Book Out-17/2/12

Back by my side. Right next to me ♥

A hug was the first thing I gave him the moment I saw him!!! He bought me a rose, oreo cheesecake & that pink carebear for belated Vday gift(: The rose is really really pretty! You know he actually wanted to surprise me but it FAILED SO BADLY! He told me he would only be booking out on Saturday! &he didn't mention a thing about guys who performed well for nafa would be able to book out on Friday! I'm not gonna elaborate on his FAILED plan, aft he ps. LOL!

Look! That's him showing me his sexaye ass. I think he'll kill me for uploading this :O

CAMWHORE SESSION!

He automatically took my blanket and throw it over his head. He wants to have FAKE HAIR. LOL

So cute! ♥

This morning I wanted to pee but I was lazy to go to the toilet, have to hobble my way there all, its tiring! Bao carried me all the way to the toilet and back to the room. So sweet right?! So convenient. I wish he could carry me everywhere manzxzxz.

That's ma handsome dressing up.

His belly disappear alr): His face also became sharper alr)): But still adorable luh(:

Just look at this pretty thing!

Pretty right?! &this is the carebear. The more i look at it the more it makes me feel like sleeping. Think its because of its eyes. LOL

Bao will be coming to see me tomorrow before he books in again! Can't w8 to see him and eat chickchick wings!

I luv u, Phoon Jun Jie ♥

Trapped within

First two people, aside from my Mum, whom I've told genuinely and truthfully what I rlly wna do in Uni -Aloysius & Jiaqi. No one knew, I daren't tell others because people judge. &just so you know, this two friends of mine won't.

They came over to visit @7plus and we just talked/gossiped non-stop all the way till 11.30pm! One thing led to another, we got so carried away and time just flew past us. It seems like ages ago since I last spoke to a friend that keeps me engaged in a conversation for so long. It felt good(:

I don't really have a particular interest that appeals to me.

On Vday,

I've learnt how to make roses! I know I've nothing better to do. Its actually quite tedious, so I'll only make roses for ppl who means smth to me(: I made THREE for bao!

To be continued!

//Edited

Actually I've just decided to give him two perfect roses because we really are a perfect couple. There's nothing more that I can ask for. I hope he likes it(: TWO MORE DAYS before I can actually squeeze my bao's face, rub his belly and kick his butt. I miss him so much! Goshhh!

Abstinence

Hmm, I can do that.

I started living life at quite an early age but now I feel as if I'm abandoned somewhere behind. All my life, I have never failed to commence real brilliantly and whatever that follows, is just sheer disappointment. That would be a great reason as to why I love beginnings. I love starting afresh, I love being in a new school, new environment, building new relationships, cultivating better characteristics. NJ was a good start. At that moment, I thought I had the ability to cease the vicious cycle that I've been experiencing. Sadly, our life is composed of contrary things. Every single damn year, something would bring me down when I'm peaking. The past two years weren't spared either. Whenever I was knocked down to beneath everyone else, it always takes a toll on me. I feel pathetic, indignant and mournful about my situation. &during the period of salvaging myself, I would start pushing many people away or simply keep to myself. The road back to track is a staggering one. I try my best to pull things back to normal, back to how it started, but it would never be the same again. That is the drop of my spectacular beginning. This is just inevitable.

"When one door closes another door opens, but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the ones which open for us."

-Alexander Graham Bell

I often have trouble seeking for the doors that open whenever one closes on me. In fact, there isn't any! I've never chanced upon one. To be honest, I am afraid, afraid of what is installed for me this year. Note to self, I'll be alone most of the time this year.

Nothing has begun yet and I already feel as if I've dropped.

Visitors for today!

Daniao, Qiguang, JunWei, Kenneth, Don & Alan

&best part of all the last two were BAO's FRIENDS(fffc clique)! Ps man!

They bought chicken wings and grapes for me.

I bet Bao asked them to buy chickchick wings for me, gosh.

At least we had an entertaining afternoon, played monopoly deal((:

Look at the cards i received! One from NJ adiv boys team and the other from FFFC clique (those who have not enlist uh)! Just imagine guys writing cards, quite cute(: BUT no one can beat my boy in writing cards and drawing pictures for me, LOL.

Tada(:

Random

I want a new camera that has the same effect as Serene's. Somehow any ugly picture will turn out well when using her camera. It smooths out our skin and make it seem like our faces are perfecto!

I like my current hair length, wna maintain it smewhere around that length! Probably a lil longer will be good(:

to be continued....

Pulau Ubin trip~ 9-10jan

Pulau Ubin was kinda of a basketball gathering in which a few didnt turn up! Activities included kayaking, fish spa and feed the marine fishes. The kayaking area was so small, in fact, it was quite pathetic! Worst of all, everything is so slow-moving there!

Look at my sexy baby! :D

I've a weirdo boyfriend, have totally no idea what he was doing man!
Look at those pussies who don't dare to put their legs into the fish pool!
After all the afternoon activities, we headed to have a good full meal. We were so hungry that we gobbled everything down so quickly. Headed back to the chalet, junwei went to sleep while the rest of us followed BAO to fish! Along the way, we saw this male dog ran past us and went up to smell the genitals of a female dog. Just a sniff and he inserted his dick into the female dog, practically raping her. Epic scene which entertained us for quite a while! Soon after, the female dog wanted to pull away but the male's dick remained stuck in her!!! SO POOR THING. Their 180degrees position totally amused us. LOL
Bao caught a fish in less than 2 minutes, lucky or what. ANW HE LOOKS PREGNANT IN THIS PICTURE!!! HAHAHAHAHA so cute right?!
Look at my happy baby(:

That haolian piece of shit showing off his muscles again!
Daniel brought Chivas for us to enjoy in the night. OMG IT WAS PURE TORTURE when both the JUN brothers started performing for us by singing whatever song they felt like singing, actually they weren't singing, they were SCREAMING! The rest of us nearly died.
This was our couple outfit! Cute right?!
This was us the next morning, shag to the max man! Just look at us!
So thats about it for our pulau ubin trip! The best part of the trip was that I get to sleep w my chubby bao and squeeze his fats at night ♥

Whats Up

NJ junior-treat-senior session. Prawning w Serene. Lonely. Lonely. Lonely.

Sighs!

//edited:

Night out w jeff marc and jx(:

My Heart Aches so much