Happy New Year

NOT.

I don't feel like it's a Happy New Year at all. Maybe because I'm filled w regrets. The 'should's and 'should not's. In the past, I'll look forward to a New Year - time to start afresh - but this time round, it just feels different. One thing that went really well this year was that I got into a relationship w Phoon Jun Jie. I ♥ him wholeheartedly. I've concluded that NJ taught me how to be a damn independent person because not all the time do you require company to do something. Ever since I step into National Junior College, I've done a million things on my own, not because I had no friends but because I made zero effort to maintain friendships and be close

to anyone. I've learnt alot these past few years &i'll carry on learning.

Resolutions:

I Want To Become A Better Person

I Hope To Pull Through The Coming Year

I Just Want To Be Happy W My Boyfriend

Presenting The Fools(:

Nights world, I'm Exhausted.

Abandoned

I feel more lonely with each passing day but its alright I'll pull through this. I've an awesome boyfriend that spend all his time w me. Satisfied. When he enlist, he would not even have so much time to dote on me anymore. Will treasure every single moment w him ♥

Bao was being a dear today, he came to find me after my first driving lesson which ended at 12pm and accompany me for lunch till 12.45 before my second driving lesson in which he waited for 100mins! Came back to my place, watched hk drama as he painted both my fingernails and toe nails for me. He insisted on painting them, aint he adorable? I shall get him to take a picture of it tomorrow &i'll upload it. While otw to meet his friends for dinner, we kept challenging each other in kart-rider and I BEAT HIM! We took turns to beat each other's high score and whoever who won would tease each other real retard-ly! haha supa funneh~

Gonna see him tomorrow, may it be another awesome day.

Drastic

I've lost interest in a lot of things. Aimless. Zero direction, w no idea where i'm heading to.

What I Want For Christmas is You.

So glad, so blessed, so in love w you.

There is a reason why we are a couple! &the two photos below is one V GOOD reason. HAHAHA

My baby was sick today, he was down w fever but he insisted on spending the whole of Christmas day w me. We had Shintokyo jap buffet because we had th vouchers, then headed back to ma room to watch THREE MOVIES! Alvin&the chipmunks 2, the pacifier, Fast and furious1. There was a short period whereby he dozed off while lying on me, he looked lika cute adorable baby. I forced him to wear my jacket even thou his body was supa warm ttm because he was feeling cold at the same time. My poor baby.

He soon felt alil better after taking sme panadol. Had dinner w my family and we all played wii together. HAHA my bro told him that he was embarrassing because he can't box properly! (lousier than my bro!)

It was a good Christmas spent w loved ones. I ♥ my bao alot! He is the bestest present.

Merry Xmas!

To me, Christmas is just like any other day that i spend w my bao. Awesome moments that i treasure v much. We visited the Qianhu Fishfarm for fish spa. Bao's leg must be v dirty or filled w dead skin because the moment he descended his feet into the water, ALL THE FISHES ATTACKED. HAHAHAHA dirty bao! Walked arnd the farm, ate cup noodles, snacked on tidbits and had icecream. We eat everywhere we go, gosh! Came back to ma place and watched smurfs on funshion(: awesome day!

We looked like idiots.

This is just plain retarded, I'm the koala and he's my tree.

Christmas Eve:

Met Jaime in the afternoon for swensons lunch! Bao was being an extra by joining us, TSK! HAHA. Bao left for home as he needed to spend time w his lil god bro so me and jaime went to lepak @esplanade. Jaime left and i wander around 313 while waiting for bao, he was going to find me at around 7pm. At around 5.50pm, i was at forever21 looking around and texting him(he was telling me that he was at home doing smth) when suddenly someone hugged me from the back and gave me a shock outta my life! I was about to give a good punch to whoever who did that and realised it was my dear boyfriend. He likes to surprise me unnecessarily, behaving just lika kid! Walked around town, was part of the human traffic jam and settled for some food @cine. OMG I CANT RMB THE NAME OF THE PLACE WE ATE AT! HAHAHAHA! Anw here are the photos(:

Look at that CUTE ROUND FACE!

The two pics below were not up on fb because i've obscene boobs):

We were riding on this BIG-ASS escalator in Ion that's why we had so much time to camwhore! lol

It was a good day because i spent it w my darling boy!

♥

we are gonna eat sushi lunch buffet tomorrow!

Passed Final Theory

I got 50/50! Pro uh, haha.

Bao followed me around today. I kept hugging him! He kept laughing at me! Life's back to normal which is filled w awesomeness. We sang the J-Bao song, people thought we were crazy, HAHA! For now i'm looking forward to tomorrow, me and bao gonna go on a fish spa date!

imma happee girl

Just look at that chubby kid face of his!

Our first couple tee! HAHA i bought this frm aussie! ITS TWEETY! MY ALL TIME FAVE CARTOON CHARACTER!

Bao got me these frm his phuket trip! So sweet right? ♥

Labyrinthine

Almost impossible to explain, hard for others to decipher. I dont want to feel this way, it would really be a miracle if there was another being which understands such complex emotions. It is some sort of tangled feeling similar to a pull-push theory.

I am back frm aussie! It was a rlly tiring trip w activities lined up every single day, for the past 7 days. I'm just glad to be home, lying on my own bed, being closer to my boyfriend and feeling as part of the majority. In australia, majority are caucasians and omgosh, they are all almost perfect. I feel like an ugly duckling there! The most relieving thing of all is that i get to see my baby again, gonna meet my love tomorrow. I've ftt tmrw so he is gonna be my personal bodyguard and follow me arnd!(:

Im gonna hug kiss smell and squeeze his chubby cheeks the moment i see him tnrw!

Nights world, i'm dead beat.

Complex

I've decided that for the next 40+ days that me and bao has before he enters NS, I shall see him every single day. Prob have an nj bball gathering, meet up w clique, hang w bao's classmates &that's about it! Oh yah CONCENTRATE on driving too! As for other aspects of my social life, i shall not initiate anything(: With expectations comes disappointments. People change & i do not want to know how they've changed so i rather remember them as what they used to be. Soon it will be my leg op again & during that whole period, i shall just catch up on dramas & look forward to every weekend because my baby will be out to dote on me♥

SOME SLUT SQUEEZED MY BF'S NIPPLES!!!

OMG i wna kill that bitch!!! My baby &his friends were walking past this chicken street when all the chickens went up to them. Those chickens started touching my boyfriend! I can forgive if they just cling on to his AWESOME MUSCULAR ARMS BUT who the fuck give whichever slut the right to squeeze his nipples! I feel like snipping off her fingers now! ARGHH! GRRRR! HMMMMMPT! How dare any female lay their filthy hands on my boy!!!

oh gawd imisshimlikemad alr!

I went to the airport @ arnd 5.45-7am to send him off this mrng and now i'm suffering from lovesickness. I've been seeing him everyday ever since ALVLs ended &now i won't be seeing him for the next 10 days. Kill me pls. I♥him so much.

I wna marry this guy, I'm sure of it

I look forward to the day that i become his wife which would be ten years down the road. We'll be so so happy together, I can feel it & sense it all together. The excitement and longingness wells up within each time the mind lingers a little too far-fetched. Life's already blissful like that, what more can i imagine if i have him 24/7? He'll dote on me, spoil me, feed me, bully me all day long! &what really matters most, is that he loves me oh so dearly. People who reads this might think i'm insane and that its too early to say anything now, but i'm quite sure if we both do not cheat on each other or do not change for the worse, things will remain as blessed as it is. Let's see how long this last, i've much faith in this relationship. We've zero disagreements for the past 6months, let alone a quarrel. The assurance he constantly gives, the way his arms embraces, the way he plant kisses, the way he stares straight back into my eyes and the protective behaviour he has over me, all these are enough to show how much i mean to him. I feel so safe w him &i'm sure that is what every girl out there is searching for, someone who will protect her in times of need and shower her w love wholeheartedly. I've found mine <3

HAHAHA ENVY ME PEOPLE! Nehneh~

Okay the line above sounded out of place, ANW the guy that i'm deeply in love w is none other than the legendary BAO a.k.a The Ball! Love you baby!

Fuck it

I hate it when i spend my parents money on unnecessary things like taking a frking cab to be on time for my driving lesson when actually i was up early but was bloody wasting my time stoning.
I hate it when i throw tantrum at my family members when im upset and its because of other people!
I hate it when people have a bad impression of me when they dont even knw me.
I hate it when im having heat rash.
I hate it when the weather is so mfking hot.

Will update soon!

I've been a really busy woman! &i've been seeing my baby everyday, so life's awesome!

Socially Awkward

I've never felt like this before because i feel like i've lost all my social skills. I rather keep quiet than talk. Maybe i'm just group-impaired, probably only functional if its a partner sort of thing but that seem to only apply to the cedar community. With regards to the others, i'm functional at all times given whatever situation! Come to think of it, i prefer being alone or just with my boyfriend thats all. Sounds anti-social but i'm happy like that. Gosh i will really die when my bao goes ns):

DYED my hair Dark Red

Walked till my ankle aches and big toes about to drop off! Driving in the mrng, dyed my hair, shopped w serene amirah charis &dhiah, dinner w phoon kenneth&serene! FOUND NO PROM DRESS, i was actually quite upset. Who ask me so fucking fat and fair and flabby. I've FLARMS(flabby+arms)!

haha serene so cute, she treatment her hair!

Thats MA HAIR!

Because my toes were about to drop off and i was literally limping, my baby piggyback me home. Sweet not? World's Best Boyfriend♥

Happy Half Year BABY!

Today is me and baby's sixth month! And i spent it w him and his friends! Today also marks the END OF THE FUCKING ALEVEL EXAMINATIONS! (sry baby, just one F) After bio paper, we went to botanic gardens to pator, he painted my nails for me! &to be honest he is v good for a guy! Went to meet his bunch of clown friends to collect their race pack and then dinner! Laughed alot cause they are such funny ppl(: NOW IM SOAKING IN MY HOT BATHTUB! DESTRESS MAN! I've another long day ahead tmrw!

♥you bao!

He Is My Forever

This greeted me when i on my GC, awww(:

♥Phoon Jun Jie